Does Anybody Hear Her?

I posted this blog on my myspace page about 1.5 years ago but I wanted to repost it and add a bit more to it . . .

It is about my sister, here is a bit of back story. My sister has battled with drugs an alcohol for years. She has had 3 girls and has lost custody of two of them and sadly one of them passed away all because of her disease. She has struggled for years to clean herself up and then falls back into her old habits. I wish I knew if there was a way I could help her. But despite all of those things she is an amazing person. She is loving, giving, talented and funny. I just wish she saw what we saw when we look at her. I know that there is more to her than her drug problem but I just wish she knew there was too. Her sin is no worse than my sins. Her sins have caused more consequences to her life but in God's eyes it is all the same and can be forgiven just the same. I wish she could just forgive herself. I haven't seen Tina since May of 2003 and I fear that the next time I do she might be in a coffin.

Tina,

I know that life has been so very hard for you. I think of you everytime I hear this song. I find it so hard to hold back my emotion each time I hear it. It is like it was written for you. I wish I knew what was deep in your heart that is causing you all of this pain and sorrow that causes you to turn to drugs. You have so much self hatred and I just wish you saw yourself like I see you. You are a child of God and you are worth so much to me. Just remember that you have so much life ahead of you. Don't let the past keep you from going forward with your life. The past does not define the person you are today or the person you can become tomorrow. Always remember that you are worth so very much and you deserve all the happiness that this world has to offer. Try to remember that the things people say and think about you are not your truths. God knows your heart as do I. Keep your chin up, sis. You are a survivor!! God has a special purpose for you and I pray that you will learn to believe it and turn your life around.

I love you with all my heart.

"Does Anybody Hear Her"
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction