As I go through life I am always having these moments that I pray I won't forget. I call them my little snapshots in time. I feel like I want to make a special place in my heart to always remember them. These treasured moments I want to savour probably wouldn't get a second thought if they happened to someone else but to me they are priceless. It is usually something sweet that Dallas has said or an expression that he makes or a moment I have had with Phoebe while nursing. But it seems like the moments I want to remember are slipping away and I am not remembering them like I want to.
Like Dallas, he is has grown so much and there are so many sweet memories that I have of him but when I think back it is hard to remember all the details. Like things seem fuzzy in my mind and I fear that I won't always remember exactly what he looked like at a certain time or the sweet way he said a word, even though it wasn't quite right, or the way he smells after a long day playing outside. And Phoebe, my sweet, sweet girl, is already growing too fast for my liking. Will I remember exactly how her first smiles looked like and more importantly will I remember how I felt when she was smiling at me? I just want to freeze time so that these moments will last forever. I was just rocking her to sleep and she was so peaceful and she had the most amazing expression on her face and like I always do I try to put it away in my mind so I can always look back on it.
But as time goes by how will I remember all of these amazing moments because it seems like there is something amazing to remember every single day? I just pray that God has given me a special gift as mother to remember these special moments when I need to remember them most. Like when my kids are teenagers and acting awful I hope a sweet memory of innocence will come back to me to remind me of the sweet child that I know is still inside. I pray that I won't lose these memories because the journey that I am having with my children is priceless and I don't want to forget anything.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Snapshots in Time . . .
Posted by Ashley at 1:33 PM
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Ashley I feel the same way. I am always trying to freeze things into my memory so I don't forget how Luke smells or how Levi laughs or just the smiles they get...but I'm so scared I'm going to forget. I mean, Luke's barely past 2 and I already hardly remember what he looked like as a baby without looking at pictures, and that makes me feel sad and awful at the same time. I wish mom's memory banks could be eternal.
-karen
I know exactly how you feel. I am always thinking "Ok I have to remember every single detail about this very moment because I never want to forget how Luke smells, or how Levi giggles, or how they grin at me..." but I get sad because already, with Luke just barely past2, I am forgetting how he looked as a baby, forgetting the things I wanted to remember about him when he was younger, and I hate that. Mommy's memory banks should be eternal.
ok if I commented twice it's b/c I didn't see the "Your comment has been saved and will be visible after blog owner approval" thing. Oops :)
I feel just like you and Karen. I wish we could remember every little thing about them.
Ashley, I feel like that too. I used to sit and inhale Brody's scent when he was a newborn and hope that I would never forget it. But sadly you do. Just live in the moment and enjoy it the best you can.
-Lisa
Ashley - I can so relate. It is all so bittersweet. I need to remind myself more to just stop and enjoy this moment in time. My sister keeps telling me that every stage is so great, but I can't see it being better than right now!! :)
Your post brought tears to my eyes!! I better get scrapbooking and journaling more!! :)
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